Consider the
hummingbird for a long moment. A hummingbird's heart beats ten times a second.
A hummingbird's heart is the size of a pencil eraser. A hummingbird's heart is
a lot of the hummingbird. Joyas Voladoras, flying jewels, the first white
explorers in the Americas called them, and the white men had never seen such
creatures, for hummingbirds came into the world only in the Americas, nowhere
else in the universe, more than three hundred species of them whirring and
zooming and nectaring in hummer time zones nine times removed from ours, their
hearts hammering faster than we could clearly hear if we pressed our elephantine ears to their infinitesimal chests.
Each one
visits a thousand flowers a day. They can dive at sixty miles an hour. They can
fly backward. They can fly more than five hundred miles without pausing to rest. But when they rest they come close to death:
on frigid nights, or when they are starving, they retreat into torpor, their
metabolic rate slowing to a fifteenth of their normal sleep rate, their hearts sludging nearly to a halt, barely beating, and if they are not
soon warmed, if they do not soon find that which is sweet, their hearts grow cold, and they cease to be. Consider for a moment those hummingbirds who did
not open their eyes again today, this very day, in the Americas: bearded
helmetcrests and booted racket-tails, violet-tailed sylphs and violet-capped
woodnymphs, crimson topazes and purple- crowned fairies, red-tailed comets and
amethyst woodstars, rainbow-bearded thornbills and glittering-bellied emeralds,
velvet-purple coronets and golden-bellied star-frontlets, fiery-tailed awlbills
and Andean hillstars, spatuletails and pufflegs, each the most amazing thing
you have never seen, each thunderous wild heart the size of an infant's
fingernail, each mad heart silent, a brilliant
music stilled.
Hummingbirds,
like all flying birds but more so, have incredible enormous immense ferocious
metabolisms. To drive those metabolisms they have racecar hearts that eat
oxygen at an eye- popping rate. Their hearts are built of thinner, leaner
fibers than ours. their arteries are stiffer and more taut. They have more
mitochondria in their heart muscles—anything to gulp more oxygen. Their hearts
are stripped to the skin for the war against gravity and inertia, the mad
search for food, the insane idea of flight. The price of their ambition is a
life closer to death; they suffer more heart attacks and aneurysms and ruptures
than any other living creature. It's expensive to fly. You burn out. You fry
the machine. You melt the engine. Every creature on earth
has
approximately two billion heartbeats to spend in a lifetime. You can spend them
slowly, like a tortoise and live to be two hundred years old, or you can spend
them fast, like a hummingbird, and live to be two years old.
The
biggest heart in the world is inside the blue whale. It weighs more than seven
tons. It's as big as a room. It IS a room, with four chambers. A child could
walk around it, head high, bending only to step through the valves. The valves
are as big as the swinging doors in a saloon. This house of a heart drives a
creature a hundred feet long. When this creature is born it is twenty feet long
and weighs four tons. It is waaaaay bigger than your car. It drinks a hundred
gallons of milk from its mama every day and gains two hundred pounds a day, and
when it is seven or eight years old it endures an unimaginable puberty and then it essentially disappears from human
ken, for next to nothing is known of the the mating habits, travel patterns,
diet, social life, language, social structure, diseases, spirituality, wars,
stories, despairs and arts of the blue whale. There are perhaps ten thousand
blue whales in the world, living in every ocean on earth, and of the largest
animal who ever lived we know nearly nothing. But we know this: the animals
with the largest hearts in the world generally travel in pairs, and their penetrating
moaning cries, their piercing yearning tongue, can be heard underwater for
miles and miles.
Mammals
and birds have hearts with four chambers. Reptiles and turtles have hearts with
three chambers. Fish have hearts with two chambers. Insects and mollusks have
hearts with one chamber. Worms have hearts with one chamber, although they may
have as many as eleven single-chambered hearts. Unicellular bacteria have no
hearts at all; but even they have fluid eternally in motion, washing from one
side of the cell to the other, swirling and whirling. No living being is
without interior liquid motion. We all churn inside.
So much
held in a heart in a lifetime. So much held in a heart in a day, an hour, a
moment. We are utterly open with no one in the end—not mother and father, not
wife or husband, not lover, not child, not friend. We open windows to each but
we live alone in the house of the heart. Perhaps we must. Perhaps we could not
bear to be so naked, for fear of a constantly harrowed heart. When young we
think there will come one person who will savor and sustain us always; when we
are older we know this is the dream of a child, that all hearts finally are
bruised and scarred, scored and torn, repaired by time and will, patched by
force of character, yet fragile and rickety forevermore, no matter how ferocious the defense and how many
bricks you bring to the wall. You can brick up your heart as stout and tight
and hard and cold and impregnable as
you possibly can and down it comes in an instant, felled by a woman's second
glance, a child's apple breath, the shatter of glass in the road, the words
"I have something to tell you," a cat with a broken spine dragging
itself into the forest to die, the brush of your mother's papery ancient hand
in the thicket
of your
hair, the memory of your father's voice early in the morning echoing from the
kitchen where he is making pancakes for his children.
Elephantine ears
Infinitesimal chests
Without pausing to rest
They come close to death
Hearts sludging
Barely beating
Grow cold
They cease to be
Brilliant music stilled
Unimaginable
Forevermore
Cold and impregnable
Works Cited:
Doyle,
Brian. "Joyas Voladoras." : Brian Doyle. The American Sponsor,
n.d. Web. 19 Sept. 2012. <http://jbleitz.com/joyas.html>.
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